I use this form of media, this forum, to relieve stress, to give myself an outlet, but to also reach out to those officers who may be feeling the exact same way I do, but just don’t know how to express it.
I’ve come to a point where I have decided that I don’t just want this job, I need this job. This may sound extreme; I will ask you one question, if you were not a police officer what could you see yourself doing successfully? What would you want to do? Is that a realistic goal?
I think this is a unique characteristic of police officers. We find ourselves in a job that turns into such a lifestyle that we believe in. When we believe in something as strong as we believe in policing, we are unable to see ourselves in another profession, in another life-style. I often think to myself what I would do if I were laid off, if I lost my job, or if I made a mistake so great that I was given the all-feared “A or B plan”. It can actually cause tangible stress for me. I have become so mentally dedicated to this life style and this profession that I cannot possibly think of a life beyond policing.
I have come to realize that maybe, just maybe, this is okay. I guarantee some professionals would say that this is an unhealthy mindset. I can see how they would say that, but I will still disagree. What I have come to discover, is that this fear of failing, or the fear of being left out of this job allows me to perform this job to the utmost of my abilities. I have allowed my fear to turn into a positive aspect of my job and life. I do not allow my fear to draw me into a negative mindset, I allow it to aid in my success. If you fear that someday you may find yourself in a situation in which you will be out of your comfort zone of policing, you need to allow that fear to aid in your every single-day success. Ensure that you go into every day determined to succeed and perform. Make those conscious and correct decisions. Do not allow your emotions to get the best of you. Do not hesitate, but do not become too eager. Remain tactical, secure and safe. Use your training, you know you have it.
I know just as well as you do that we all fear losing our job as a police officer. What in the world would, or could, we possibly do without this job? You and I both know that we were born to be police officers. Go into every single work day ensuring that when you leave, you will still be a police officer tomorrow.
Blessed are the peace makers.